![]() ![]() Whether or not he wants to admit it, it’s there, making him jump from one extreme to the other. ![]() Run the pads of his digits up Josh’s neck and to his flushed cheek. Josh couldn’t be more beautiful in this dim light, the reflections dancing in his eyes, dazzling him. A few stray rays from the lamp outside filter through Josh’s curls. Finds Tyler in only his boxers, dark head resting on Josh’s pillow. If only they could hear each other’s silent beseeches through the walls built of their contrition. All Josh had to do was wait for Tyler to decide. A place you can shut a door to and ultimately hide a dirty secret. It’s dragging its nails against their insides once more. The familiar pull that tears through them both when they’re alone. It was so quiet Josh could almost hear Tyler’s thoughts whirring in his mind, like a washing machine on spin cycle. Just moments ago he and Tyler were staring down their respective walls, staving off temptation. He tries to steady the uneasy pounding of the pulse beneath his ribs. “Josh? Are you asleep?” Tyler’s voice cracks slightly. He was wondering how long it would take before Tyler snuck into his bed. His breath snags a hold on to something in his chest when he feels Tyler snuggle in. 3 minutes later, the mattress dips next to Josh. Tyler wrinkles his nose against his pillow and fills his lungs to capacity. If he focuses hard enough, maybe he can… Josh’s nearness makes Tyler’s senses spin. His expression is darkened with a stricken hint of disappointment. Resignation leaves a strange muzzy feeling in his brain. The sheet covers only his thighs, one foot sticking out beyond the frame. When fifteen minutes pass, and his brow is still creased with tension, Josh sighs and turns on his side. His ears perk up, listening for any sound coming from Tyler’s room. Josh stares upwards, sniffing the heavens. ? “Goodnight, Ty.” * Darkness thickens, and except for the faint blink of his message notifications kindling the corner, the only other light comes from atop the motion detectors outside. I missed us, too.” “Goodnight, Josh.” Tyler’s smile is pinched. I missed us.” Almond eyes brimming with warmth blink. After two steps, Tyler half-turns, calling Josh’s name. “So, I guess I’ll see you tomorrow morning? You need anything just holler.” “Will do.” Josh’s heart sinks. Right here.” A lingering look tethers them. Josh stops, looks at his feet a moment before letting his gaze drift up to Tyler’s face. “You remember where the guest bedroom is?” Tyler asks, his voice a bare whisper in the night. Josh’s toothbrush hangs from between his fingertips and he flicks it nervously against his palm. The hallway seems narrower all of a sudden. Josh stands to the left and Tyler to the right. It’s not the first time Josh has slept over, but it is the first time since hiatus they’ve been alone in this house. Josh and Tyler are in love with each other. Before the series of choices made to deflect attention from their brightest yet most painful truth. Tyler told his stupid jokes, the ones that make Josh grab his belly and roll around on the floor, mouth open but no sound of laughter escaping. Played OG Mario Bros., side by side on the couch like two teenagers. Brought his old Nintendo that Mamma Dun boxed up for him when she cleaned out his room. Without sentinels or cameras or prying eyes of any kind. It was the first time in what seemed like ages they were able to be alone. That’s why the evening they've just spent together is so important. The short break they have before the festivals begin is also a much-needed vacation from their regular lives. Even two people in the same room can feel completely alone. As ridiculous as it sounds for two people who spend most of their time together for work, this doesn't mean they're together. No matter what, they always find their way back to each other. It would help if they could spend some time alone. And this has slowly eroded what they built of their relationship together. Josh realizes with the band’s ridiculous popularity, a whole other set of expectations and complications have arisen. For too many reasons to list, it just hasn’t been the same since hiatus. The brief falling out took an unimaginable toll. They grew apart and then found themselves again. A lot has changed, especially over the past two years. Fact of the matter is, most of the gossip isn't wrong. Are they happy or not? What’s going on? Every move, every word, every twitch on their faces is analyzed by millions each day. “They were so much happier before.” Rumors abound. ← Previous Work Part 9 of Kitty Bellies: Tyler and Josh being soft bois Next Work → Stats: Published: Completed: Words: 7,642 Chapters: 3/3 Comments: 56 Kudos: 259 Bookmarks: 15 Hits: 3,731 Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings. ![]()
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